There is lot of skepticism in previous blogs. Actually they are meant to be negative. It's easier for me to write negative as it can be easily supported by better and meaningful contents. The sheer purpose of the blog is to print the state of mind. Negativistic approach in blogging is a great way to bring out some level of frustration within. Sometimes it helps in analyzing the clear picture of cause and effect of the frustration or negativism. Everybody has a burning philosopher inside. Some keep it inside and some throw it outside.. then comes third type who blog about it..:-D .

I have great ways to bring out positive feelings as well but I don't have enough patience to write about it. I use other means for it.:-). It could be experienced better as one gets along with me.

The encouraging point about posting below is it ends with the positive node. And this makes me feel good and brings a smile on my face. I say it as a smooth landing...

Be simple

Last blog which I wrote long back was on my negativism. I was really frustrated in those days. I had a feeling that I was losing in all fronts of life, be it very silly or a substantial one. The effect of both was same, a sheer frustration. While writing about that time, I am at present getting the feeling of pessimism which I don't want, at least for a while.
Now a days there is lot happening around me or even triggered by me. These surrounding events are really creating pressure. Whatever may be the cause of these events, the end results "would" be, and well I should say "must" be changing my life.

I am not able to find out what I exactly want. Most of the time I try to logically break down subjectivity called life but unfortunately I lack the skill of thinking so rationally. Eventually mind ends up in a persistently confused state. I think while considering all factors to handle the matter or many matters at hand, I shouldn't forget what I want and what my needs are.

I know nobody going to tell me what I want and I have to find it out myself. At least the quest of knowing would help me understand lot many things. As someone say there is nothing called "absolute self awareness" there is always a pursuit of it. Some people around me say that I think a lot. I say I think therefore I am confused.

In reality I am fighting with myself. Some school of thoughts in my mind are in conflicting states with some other. The solution of these fights is either ignorance which I really feel is a bliss, or capacity to make things simple and take a logically supported tough stance.

What I feel is a gift to make things simple. I love when great problems (it's a perception which remains a fact in at least 99% cases) of life could get resolved in a simple and straight forward way.

And I think when simple gets going, going gets simple.

So lets try to be simple...

-ve degree

The heaviness of negativism is surrounding my mind and has always been around me no matter how much easier situation to deal with. The ignorance to any negative thought was the solution I adopted to overcome negativism. Isn’t there any way to act positive and tackle the situation? I am again going into skeptical mood about me and these intertwining thoughts creates a necessary recipe for the low opinion.

I am also a victim of gross positive attitude. Here I forget the negative aspect and always fall in the trap of Murphy’s Law. The moment of sudden thrill creates a cataract in front of my “so called wise eyes” and crouching Murphy makes me an easy prey of his infinite ravenousness. So it is especially important for me to be cautious whether there is favorable situation or not so favorable situation. I just need to be little concern about myself and bingo I will win. How to be concerned is easy, split the personality into two, one is concern and other is pathetic. Now the concern half will empathize with pathetic half. This empathy will bring some ideas which should be helpful to soothe your pathetic half and this intern will result in victory over dirty Murphy.

But what I feel the best way is the sports man way. I am searching for a sport’s man in me that fights back and again take the hold of the losing game, a sportsman who has a killing spirit which gives him an appetite to plunder the resisting situation. This perfect inner sportsman is very rare species and can appear sometimes depends upon once luck. People say I can stir up myself which will bring out Roger Federer inside me. I am still struggling to find that "chuul" (mechanism of stirring up).

The degree of negativity increases exponentially as there is a linear increase in dimensions of the life. As I am growing (with age) I have accumulated various dimensions of life as a result cloud of negativism got heavier and denser. And tendency to complicate things is the god gifted quality in me which just act as an icing over the cake of negativity. This is like a situation of an innocent who doesn't know about the consequences of the cutting the branch of the tree on which he himself is setting.

The negative thought process sometimes act as once own critic. And its healthy till it doesn’t reach the severity level that I am describing about. This ability helps in carving out a perfect output from self if deeply and consistently worked upon. It is upon us to divide a line when to be negative when not. Sometimes it is commonsense, logical and priority based.

Getting serious towards oneself and realizing that we can’t afford or waste too much of time in low opinion and negativism is required. A little time on thinking leading to act not dreaming (that’s why some people call thinking is just a waste of time) is important to avoid irritating troubles. See the effect of thinking a -ve degree is already started acting positive.....